If i could turn back time

Hi. 

It's now 2 am.  But my eyes are wide open. Huh.

So,  i decided to stalk pretty girls,  akim and stacy hahahaha. Akim and Stacy come so random asking for an hour stalking activities.

When i scrolling the ig (tell u when i say pretty, that means they're really pretty )
I come across few of my schoolmates (who pretty ).

One of them,  studying in Egypt. 

Narrow down the list?

Hahaha.  I swear dulu masa Spm,  i didn't do well. Mesti kena hamun dengan org yang tau result aku. Alhamdulillah i got straight A's.  Not to mention how hard i play,  and how bad i was in the ranking. Really.  Ranking aku puluhan kut.  Siap bet dengan Budak2 who's better in whatever. 

Seriously i don't deserve the result. Suka tidur whereas budak lain buat study group. And i kawan dengan genius suka tidur jugak.  Haha.  Sebab dia genius A+ dia lagi banyak.

And after that i applied for piln. I chose Egypt middle east semua tu. As i took Arabic tinggi so i guess dia mcm membantu.

But i didn't do well.  Interview pun tahpapa.  But still hoping for miracles.
And ended up tak dapat pun. 

Sedih doh.

Gila tak. 

Macam a rejection from your crush la perasaan dia. And i hate that. The feeling of a failure . Even kau tak sepenuh hati pun. Sebab dia medical course.

So berbalik pada cerita stalking tu. This girl....  Dah lah cantik.  Pastu posted up pulak gambar sentiasa melancong bergumbira bahagia.  Dah la gambar pun view kebabom

And then,  i compared her with me.

A vast huge difference

Macam langit dengan bumi.

Bagai aur dengan tebing eh.

Gambar i posted up on ig adalah gambar selekeh serabai barai acah2 syok dengan vet life. Hahaha.  I don't want that.

Aku nak ada charisma.

Nak ada satu feeling yang vetlife tak semestinya serabai.  Which is quite impossible.

Sbb kau bukan deal dengan makanan,  cuisine atau modelling.

And i would like to be somebody yang nice to see. 

Bukan cantik nak mampos tu
Bukan comel nak gigit kang tu
Bukan cun nak jadikan u awek tu

Bukan.

Tapi just nice.  Tak serabai.  Sophisticated. Dedicated yet so into the vetlife

Kawan aku tu too pretty.  Dengan mmg pandai styling. Ada lesung pipit. 

And i wonder how people see orang yang ad dimple ni cantik....

I can't see the prettiness in my dimples hahahahahaha.

But i still rasa i cantik

Hahahahaha. Ok.  Kalau korang baca. Don't put comment on my face. Kang muka ko plak yg kena tumbok. 

Tbh. Mata dah ngantuk asal eh takmau tido.
Effect caffeine ke.  Because i took tea ptg tadi. Haih.

Tulah.  Lama tak guna caffeine sekali effect berair mata ku. 

Masa study week tu pun rasa dah total used otak time siang malam pulun tido.

#insomnia #tehaiskaksuzana

If i could turn back time. I nak order horlick ais ja.